New Journal

Every time I open up a new journal it's exciting to feel the new pages and foresee what thoughts this time I can fill the blank pages with.

New ideas over and over,
Even when the writing stops,
Thoughts float like air,
I write about it because I breathe it,
I was there.
-Rona Aying Llanos

Dear Lie

Sometimes I stop writing because there are so many things to write about. Some of them even lies, that everything is going to be ok, that every fairytale has a happy ending which is not true. I don't believe Cinderella's Prince charming had love at first sight, decided to marry her and they never had any arguments that led to any heartache or tears. And I'm also not saying that there is no happily ever after, sometimes books and movies make it look easier than it is. But that's why we read and watch movies right? to escape reality? When all these ideas placed in media for our entertainment.... were inspired by some reality like a broken heart or a love lost and found. A climax, struggling point then the solution and the happy ending; so for that thought that I doubt the ease of life's happy endings itself, I remembered the song by TLC Dear Lie:
Dear lie
You suck
You said you could fix anything
Instead Im fucked
You made things even worse for me
If I had balls Id tell you get away from me
Guess Im not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth would hurt me
When its you that hurts me more

Chorus
Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin words in my head
Get outta my mouth
Youre nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me out of me
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lie
Youre dumb
You think youve got the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
Ive got your walls
Now get the hell away from me
Ive learned your art
Wont let you unnerve me
Wont let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies wont hurt no
No more

Chorus

Lie lie
Ive got
Your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I learned your art
Wont let you unnerve me
Wont let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies wont hurt no
No more

Dear Lie - TLC

You Are Everything To Me

I have this video I want to share with you; it’s about love of course. I didn’t choose to translate it word for word because doing that literally would lose its meaning. This song called Ikaw Ang Lahat Sa Akin (You are Everything to Me) is a Filipino Modern classic. It’s sung over and over in different styles by different artists but the message is still the same.
“Love in any language straight from the heart, put it all together, never apart” Sandi Patti, oh how I wish I could show the emotion this song has, how deep and heartfelt it is, given the circumstance of a love like Romeo and Juliet, where there is no life to live if you can’t be with that one special person.
I chose this version because I believe the singers’ voice is so strong, not because she’s hitting the high notes but because she sings the emotion of love when you want to scream it to the whole world of how much you love someone; and if only they could hear you and you could be given the chance to show it, and show the whole world of how great a love can be. Because the silent beat of your heart is not enough for that person, the hardly audible thump you hear of yourself needs to be heard and to be heard by an audience, whether they are a skeptic, believer or not or the hopeless romantic in frantic search of it.
The song may be in a different language but the expression through the music tells the same story of that kind of love. I don’t have to understand the language to hear to listen to the pain the song portrays. That’s what artists do right? Paint a picture, compose a song and give it meaning.
But mind you it all comes down to one love, different kinds of love based on different kinds of cultures, this is a sample of a romantic love from my Filipino culture.
I’ve embedded the song and lyrics in the Tagalog language and below that I have tried my best to translate the lyrics of the message the song is trying to tell. But like I said I did not translate it word for word I translated it just enough to give the message of the song and maybe show the viewer the pain in the other components of the work in the melody, and other expressions besides the language barrier of the type of love the song is about.

IKAW ANG LAHAT SA AKIN

You Are Everything to Me pretty much begs the story of…..
There was a memory, a memory I will always keep with me. When I was given a chance to show you we could be and our love is stronger than others. And given that short moment against all odds, I know you will always be everything and the world to me.
We’re in a world where we cannot be together and you and I are not meant to be, so maybe in a next lifetime…I will wait, because my heart beats for you, my purpose is to love you to be by your side and take care of you and I know you love me to.
But we can never be together like that.
You can’t stop a beating heart that has a feeling and is beating for only one person, when it’s found its pair; the better half of me.
I can’t teach my heart to forget you and stop loving you when I know you’re the one for me. How do you stop a love that strong? If I can’t have you then I am destined to wait till the end of time and beyond even when the heart stops beating, this love with still exist and still wait, a love this strong will exist and keep waiting and
I will go on living with the love I have for you even you're not with me
PS
I tried my best to translate the general meaning of the song, but this is pretty much what the song is saying, in my opinion. It’s for the hopeless romantic and I know there are others out there. This translation sounds corny and cheesy but it is what it is, I just wanted to share.

Random Rant...

I was asked to write something for http://www.divatoolbox.com....awesome website btw for women all over the world dealing "real life" and being successful. I recommend this website as a go to place to find any question or inspiration you need ;P....sooo:

Here's a very general essay of an random rant for inspirational purposes of all women out there who can relate....hope you like it.
I really couldn't find a topic to write about since the topics I had to chose from were out of my league I suppose as far as the type of writing I normally do. But I chose to write about careers and work life balance, because I know it's not easy. It's not easy being a woman in a man's world, and be able to juggle all our other feminine instincts and responsibilities that go along with it.
Being a mother of 4, Iike all other mommies out there you put your kids first, their well being in sacrifice of your own and you put your husband on the pedestal to care for him...with all this going on, you end up forgetting yourself at times.
As true DIVAs here on this website I know you relate to what I mean when I say, with all these hats we wear, sometimes it's hard not to break down. But I want to send the message out that we are not alone and if we can inspire each other to put even the smallest amount of time and effort to just US we can all heed our calling and make an even bigger difference in this world. We can be our husbands' best friend and support; we can be our children's anchor and mentor and we can be who we were meant to be and touch the lives of others.
I believe there is balance even at times it's chaotic, but it only take s a few minutes like what I am doing right now to focus on who we really are, even its rushed but it’s from the heart. I am a writer, poet and artist; I am taking the time the show that we can have both a successful career and do what we are passionate about. We can achieve not only the maternal things instinctively through hard work and be the best mother and wife but we can also be the best of who we really are spiritually beyond what we thought we couldn't do. This is a very general article, and I apologize for that but my message is, find yourself and don't give up to do what you love, whatever thing that can make you complete, even when situations get hectic; there is a great personal satisfaction that we can be able to express ourselves and love unconditionally beside the obvious: our family, our obligations BUT most importantly the person you see in the mirror so when you see yourself, you can smile and tell yourself you're complete, ready to face the day and do it all over again because it's worth the effort knowing it's just you.
-Rona Aying Llanos

I just wanted to share this video

It's a remake of an older song, but I think the remake of the song deserves some credit. Honestly the whole set up of the video inspires me, i listen to it at least once a day, lol. It is a music video from a Filipino movie, the movie is typical fall in love, then climax problems=happy ending. Please just watch the video to appreciate the song =)....and don;t forget that where inspiration comes from something is produced check out my REAL work at

http://markandrona.blogspot.com

Set you free

Sorry, I don't mean to just be posting videos and songs. But every artist find inspiration from other artists and that's what I've been doing these past few days. Looking at other peoples work to feel their emotion when they created something so i can feel that energy and make something of my own. Sometimes i draw a blank, and sometimes I have too much on my mind all at once that it helps to just look at others work to organize the chaotic ideas in my head. Here's a song, it's simply written but heartfelt.

Pledge of Love

I added this short scene even it's in my native language, because I was touched at the emotion the characters portrayed and how strong a love can be-against all odds. =)