New Journal

Every time I open up a new journal it's exciting to feel the new pages and foresee what thoughts this time I can fill the blank pages with.

New ideas over and over,
Even when the writing stops,
Thoughts float like air,
I write about it because I breathe it,
I was there.
-Rona Aying Llanos

Dear Lie

Sometimes I stop writing because there are so many things to write about. Some of them even lies, that everything is going to be ok, that every fairytale has a happy ending which is not true. I don't believe Cinderella's Prince charming had love at first sight, decided to marry her and they never had any arguments that led to any heartache or tears. And I'm also not saying that there is no happily ever after, sometimes books and movies make it look easier than it is. But that's why we read and watch movies right? to escape reality? When all these ideas placed in media for our entertainment.... were inspired by some reality like a broken heart or a love lost and found. A climax, struggling point then the solution and the happy ending; so for that thought that I doubt the ease of life's happy endings itself, I remembered the song by TLC Dear Lie:
Dear lie
You suck
You said you could fix anything
Instead Im fucked
You made things even worse for me
If I had balls Id tell you get away from me
Guess Im not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth would hurt me
When its you that hurts me more

Chorus
Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin words in my head
Get outta my mouth
Youre nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me out of me
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lie
Youre dumb
You think youve got the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
Ive got your walls
Now get the hell away from me
Ive learned your art
Wont let you unnerve me
Wont let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies wont hurt no
No more

Chorus

Lie lie
Ive got
Your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I learned your art
Wont let you unnerve me
Wont let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies wont hurt no
No more

Dear Lie - TLC